Dearest family,
i wanted to say this last week but i forgot—DAD. i’ve been thinking about you a lot and as I pray i just feel so overwhelmed with gratitude and just truly thank the Lord for you and for your devotion. devotion to mom and devotion to us and then i realized that it all goes back to your devotion to God. thank you!! i love and miss you so much!!
and mom. i haven’t forgotten about you. this morning i read something in personal study and it made me just beam with pride because my mama is not just a teacher, she’s the best teacher in the world. and teaches at school, at church, and at home–the most important school of all. so this is for you mama: “teaching is the noblest profession in the world. upon the proper education of youth depend the permanency and purity of the home, the safety and perpetuity of the nation. the parent gives a child an opportunity to live; the teacher enables the child to live well” -President David O. McKay.
my parents are the coolest. have SO much fun in costa rica and BLAKE take soooo many pictures, okay? i got a little teary eyed reading what dad said about how you taught in Deacon’s quorum about the sacrament and how special it is to you to be graced with honor to pass it. you truly are representing the Lord and everytime i show people pictures of you, i say, “vot, nastayashee angel” which means, “Look, a real life angel” that’s you blake. i love you.
kev–i’ve been praying for you and i hope you nailed all your finals and take care of tyler and andy on the trip hhahaha sister carver is the best and is now in on all inside jokes i have with all humans because we’ve spent so much time together and we are One and so she sometimes quotes tyler and says, “you’re grounded” hahaha and speaking of tylers and inside jokes—tyler, lauren, maddie, carley & co, sister carver and i always say, “happy 6 month anniversary my babe. oooooo i love you”…ESPECIALLY when it real life was our anniversary in russia. we said it all day. tis the best.
anyways, here is a scripture that i’ve been thinnking about recently: “cast all your cares unon the Lord, for He careth for you.” i can’t think of more beautiful words and a more beautiful truth. i don’t have access to my scriptures and forgot to write down the reference but i thiiiiink it’s philipians 4 sometime before the :i can do all things with Christ who strengtheneth me” verse. or something like that.
anyways, this week was grand. we went to smolensk round 2 and it was awesome and on saturday we got permission to switch our p-day kind of (so i’ll be hitting the streets after i write to you) because we have these people we’re starting to teach and they;re a couple and they’ve been together for 6 years and they remind me SO much of kieran and ange. they are seriously the russian kieran and ange and so obviously im obsessed with them and always want to be with them. They’re names are aksana and yuri and they work on mondays but they really wanted to show around town and adventure with us and they have a car which is realllllly unusual and so they picked us up and we went to all of these different parks and we bladed and picniced and strolled and it was SO fun! moscow parks are UNREAL and it was kinda rainy and we’re just surrounded by forests and it smells so good and is so green. it’s even more green and foresty than new hampshire!! i was in heaven.
then saturday night we were joined by our ksyoosha. she leaves for her mission tomorrow (she’s going to the spain mtc and then to the st petersburg mission) and she got set apart last night and she’s staying with us and we’re in a threesome kind of and it’s the best!! nicole, it’s given me a tiny taste of what it would be like to serve with a native. it’s so awesome doing EVERYTHING in russian–ccompanionship study, chatting before bed, everything. and she’s such an incredible example and we’ve felt the Spirit SO strongly just flooding us these last few days. We forgot she’d be with us sunday and already set us a lesson with a member present so it turned out to kind of just be a lesson with double members present because ksyoosha (now sister krooshkina) wasn’t set apart yet. We taught about the Atonement’s role in the Plan of Salvation and it was so incredible. I was just so touched as I studied and prepared and then taught and testified. I know that Jesus Christ is the reason that I am who I am and that I am where I am and I’m without end, eternally grateful. I can’t describe it for even a second. but nastya, the girl we taught, stayed for all three hours of church after our lesson. it was incredible, and the first speaker in sacrament meeting stood up and said, “today i would like to speak on the Plan of Salvation. And i want to specifically focus on the Atonement” hahah we just started laughing! the Lord is so aware of us!
After church we booked it to a lesson with the chinese family we’re teaching and sister krooshkina was with us AND the only chinese member in moscow, Mike. hahhahhahahah sooo much miscommunication happened. we thought we were going over to their apartment ffor dinner. mike was an hour late. it was pouring rain. and turns out they live in a tiny flat with tons of other families so there were too many of us and they planned on us just meeting at the park but it was raining so we stood in between the two sliding doors of a grocery store (like you walk through sliding doors and then there are grocery carts and then another set of sliding doors into the store) and mike and the mom just ratttttled off in chinese and would laugh and point at us hahha but in a friendly way? and then randomly they’d say something in english to us like, “ohhhh i really like eat beer” hahah so we were like, “ohh okay so they’re talking about the word of wisdom now” hahahha it was the funniest times. and me and sister carver and sister krooshkina just chatted in broken english with the father and played with the baby. they are the best. and want to learn more! they have zero religious background but are so open and kind and we love their family SOOO much. mike is from taiwan (shout out to caleb!) but is leaving for a vacation in sweden for a month and we’re doomed!!! maybe they can skype with chinese members or missionaries? i don’t know. we brought them a book of mormon in chinese but it was in traditional chinese so we need to get a simple chinese one. crazy stuff. chinese is hysterical to listen to.
anyways, i am happier than ever.
right now we are in the shmancy “computer lounge” because the post office is closed and this is the only one we can find but we are alone in this huge room with dimmed lights and big screen computers and french music and velvet arm chairs hahahhahahah it’s hysterical.
anyways, i love yoU!!!!! have a great week!
dearest family,
we visited this babushka on saturday who has parkinsons and i thought about my own babushka and how painful and hard it must be for her. this lady’s name is loodmeela (hahah so hard to smell in english) and she’s so lonely and is reallly realllly suffering. we talked about the healing and the hope of the atonement and sang, “where can i turn for peace” together and it invited such a beautiful spirit.
we had an incredible week this week–we were on splits for the 4th of july and ate watermelon and hot dogs and pb and j for a truly american lunch and we sang all of the patriotic hymns and i got a little choked up when i sang, “i love thy rocks and rills!!” this world is so beautiful. and as we sang to the “Author of liberty” I was just so overwhelmed with gratitude for the freedom we so sweetly enjoy and for the freedom that is spreading—for the very fact alone that i am an amaerican girl living in russia…there was a time when i would not have been free to do so and the very thought chokes me!!
we contacted our brains out and sister nielson and i had a lesson with this wonderful muslim woman and the spirit was so strong, teaching her about the restoration and invititing her to read the book of mormon. I respect islam so much and sometimes it’s hard for me because i don’t want to hinder something already so beautiful and sacred but then i have a reality check where i realize that the biggest difference is that we believe that Jesus Christ was not just a teacher and not just a prophet, but that He was also the Savior and Redeemer of our souls and that only by Him and through Him we can be cleaned and healed and changed and worthy to live with God and our families in glory forever and ever. And i realize the reality of that truth. and how i really KNOW that it’s not just a nice idea and it’s not fantasy but that it’s true. it’s real. and I realized that I need to boldly testify that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of the Living God. and so I did. and i promised her that if she will read the Book of Mormon, she will know for herself. I can’t pronounce her name because it’s not a russian name but it sounds like Shakira so that’s what i call her and that’s really funny to me. I pray that Shakira will allow the Spirit to enter her heart and enter her home and teach her truth…I hope she will allow Christ to heal her family and her marriage and i hope her husband will be open to this message.
on saturday we had a ward picnic and it was in the woods and it was magical and such a a success!! so whimsical and there were games with the scriptures–for example for the Old Testament, they had to shoot these things at this cardboard goliath and for the new testament we did charades and the other teams had to guess which verse we were acting out and for the Book of Mormon there was this pillow fight–trying to knock each other off of this log and it was nephites vs. lamanites and for the Doctrine and Covenants there was the stick pull game that was Joseph Smith;s favorite. then there was food of course and frisbee and volleyball and we had 5 people come who we are teaching right now and they had a great time!! two of them are this couple, Aksana and Yuri and they offered to give us a ride to that babushka’s house afterwards which was SO nice because loodmeela lives an hour outside of moscow and that just so happens to be where they live, too and it’s SUPER rare for people to have cars in russia. i can count on one hand how many times i’ve ridden in a car this last year+ and i often forget that i know how to drive those things.
anyways. this couple is the best and they want us to come rollerblading with them sometime this week so we’re going to ask our new mission president (who is awesome by the way. not at all a greenie–very busniessman/on top of things, organized and unphased by challenges and also very kind), if we can rollerblade with them and then teach them the gospel after. sounds like my two favorite things in one!! woooohooo!!
so many other lessons and miracles and stories to share but there’s no time. but ohhhhhh how i love you so! have a great week!
tomorrow i meet the new mission president at the mission leadership conference in the mission home and i can’t wait. it’s still very strange that the sorensons are gone and i alreadymiss them so much and just realized i actually don’t have any pictures of them except for the big mission picture…so sad. but i know the Borders will be wonderful! they are from washington and i’ll tell you more about them after i meet them.
BREAKING NEWS!!!!! the killers came to moscow on tour and Brandon Flowers gave a devotional on thursday night and missionaries could come if we brought investigators so we would laugh and say, “let’s go killers contacting” and we invited everyone we knew and we had like 6 people come and it was life changing. i never even knew that i was a killers fan! i was never a not-fan, but i never really listened to them on purpose and now that’s all i want to do (but i’m still just jamming to motab of course). but yep. now i’m the killers’ number one fan and i will go to ALL of their concerts when i get home.
Brandon was so normal and humble and kind. He wasn’t an eloquent speaker or anything but it was as if he was just chatting with his friends and he is secretly so funny. but american sarcasm doesnt translate so us missionaries were craaaacking up (especially me) and the russians were kinda confused haha but they understood when he talked about his testimony and stuff. i didn’t really know what to expect because the word “fireside” doesn’t translate so people just told us that Brandon Flowers was going to come and speak and i didn’t know if he was going to sing or if it was going to be a q&a (whih\ch it was at the end), but he walked in in his shirt and tie holding his scriptures and i realized it was going to be way better than i expected and it was! he talked about his family and his dad’s conversion provesss-he was a catholic and worked at a grocery store and after a decade of saying no (because his wife was a member), he knelt down in the back produce room and prayed about the book of mormon and said he felt the spirit from his toes to his head.
Brandon talked a lot about living in the world of sex, drugs, and rock and roll but just making the choice….he just chose to not get involved and shared his very simple recipe: he goes to church at EVERY opportunity he can, he stays away from pornography, he reads his scriptures and watches general conference talks in his hotel room sometimes, and mormon messages, he tries really hard not to swear haha etc. etc. he is such a good example and so open and honest. he said he watched an interview with brad pitt where brad said that religion is just suffocating and it reminded brandon of something he read in one of his favorite books: Jesus the Christ. James E. Talmage said that because He was sinless, Christ was truly free. And brandon said that he decided to go with James on this one–sorry Brad. Brandon talked about how he loved that idea—and he wanted to be free….truly free…so he decided to make changes and try to follow Christ.
He talked about how often people say that religion is designed for the poor who just need to cling to the hope of a better world, but he talked about growing up in poor and humble circumstances and just knowing that the faith of his family was not because of these circumstances, but rather because the Holy Spirit of God had told them that it is true. He said that now that he’s on the other side of things, he is more and more aware that wealth does not bring happiness and does not suffice or replace faith. The happiest people he knows are the Havens, a regular family in his home ward in henderson nevada. It was so cool to hear his thoughts and his testimony and to shake his hand and get a picture with him. I wish i could send it to you–curse these computers in the post office!
anyways, it was a once in a lifetime opportunity and im so grateful.
speaking of graatefuul, yesterday we got to watch the missionary broadcast in sunday schoool/relief society in russian and it was realllly long and i felt bad that we had twopeople with us as church for the first time and it was probably really confusing and intense to be at church for 3.5 hours but i felt the Spirit so strong, and i hope they did, too. when they showed those video clips with the music, i was just overwhelmed with the Spirit and with gratitiude–as it showed children singing “I hope they call me on a mission” and it showed them preparing from such a young age–in the home and at church, in young womens, etc. etc. i couldn’t help picturing such a montage of my life and everything and everyone that helped me prepare for THIS. i am living my dream! and everything i ever learned and felt and experienced, thought, said, did, influenced my decision to serve and influences the way i serve. I remembered in the mtc in our zone at church all of the sisters sang, “the armies of helaman” in russian, but we switched to English as we sang the words, “and we are NOW the Lord’s missionaries to bring the world His truth” and I remember how i felt then and i still feel the same way—so honored, so blessed, so grateful—grateful for the magnitude of the trust of God in me. SO grateful for every young women’s leader, primary, sunday school, seminary, and MTC teacher. so grateful for my parents and siblings and friends. so grateful for the companionship of the Holy Ghost. And most importantly, SO grateful for the One whose name I wear next to mine–that of Jesus Christ, the Savior of the World and my Savior.
I can’t believe that I am here–in Russia–doing what I’m doing. I’m in just as much of a daze as nicole is. Nicole, i love you and am praying for you!
I hope you all have a wonderful week….and you should all listen to the killers. how about magdalena.
last week we took a night train to lipetsk, did a split all day and then the next morning we took a long bus right to voronesh, the farthest city in our mission and did a split there all day then took a night train out that night. we were in moscow for less than 24 hours before we had to get on an express train to the ariport and fly out to riga for our last visa trip (so crazy!) So it was quite a busy week but i wanted to actually tell you more about the week BEFORE, since i didn’t get the chance to do so last week.
So i mentioned Paulina. She’s about 17 and We met her a few weeks ago whilst contacting in a park one evening and we noticed she had a really cool backpack and we had been searching EVERYWHERE for backpacks because we had done a few splits without backpacks and just carried all our stuff in grocery bags and it was a nightmare but for some reason backpacks are really hard to fin in russia. anyways, we walked up to paulina and asked where she got her backpack and she said mexico hahha which is verrrrrrry unusual. i’ve never met a russian who’s been to mexico. she asked if we speak english and started speaking in perfect english and then she said she was so sorry, but she had to go right then. we hadn’t even introduced ourselves yet or said anything about the gospel, but we asked for her number and she said yes and then we were kinda curious as to what we should do next because we hadn’t set up any kind of expectations and all she knows is that we’re americans who want to “hang out” with her or something. so when we called her to meet, we had no idea what to expect but we just prayed that the Spirit would be with us.
Our other miracle is Karina. She has known the church for years and comes to English club off and on but has never met with missionaries before. She’s about 40 maybe, though she looks a lot younger and she has a 19 year old son. She’s a karate trainer and MMA and she’s petite and feminine and beautiful but strong and i would not want to mess with her haha We met her for the first time two weeks ago at English club and she just stood out–everything she said was so wise and she just glows and is so full of light and life and she is so funny! the theme for the week was role models and she was talking about whitney houston (not the drug addiction part, but the passion and the talent part) and that’s when i knew karina and i were soul sisters. I asked her if she had ever been to church before and she said she had once but it was a long time ago and she had always wanted to come again but she felt like something was always getting in her way. then she said, “Probably satan” haha i said, “yeah, probably” and invited her to come. I called her on Saturday night to remind her and she said “I’ll try” which we all means nothing. On my mission i’ve learned that “I’ll try” and “we’ll see” are the enemy and “I promise” is like music to my ears!!
Anyways, we still had faith and prayed that she would come and sure enough, we recognized the gait of the person walking in front of us into the entrance of the church. I repeat, walking in FRONT of us. mind you, we get to church 30 minutes early. We were SO excited! She stayed all three hours and the SPirit was so strong and she participated and she knew so many of the members already and made new friends and made origame butterflies for the children and took notes during sunday school!!! it was amazing!!! we told her that unfortuantely the only days we could meet would be thursday or saturday/Sunday because we were out of town all week and she said she was leaving for belarus on thursday morning!! so she asked if we could meet on monday in between her shifts and we said of course!! so that’s why i couldn’t really email last week–we had a 2 hour lesson with karina that started with her randomly telling us how much she loves and respects the principle of tithing, it continued with us teaching the restoration and then her bringing up the word of wisdom, temple marriages, why we don’t baptize babies, the law of chastity, how much she loves modesty, the importance of covenants and commitment etc. etc. etc. and ended with her saying the closing prayer and telling our Heavenly Father that her intuition tells her that Joseph Smith was a prophet, that the Book of Mormon is His word, and that this is His church, but asking Him if He could help her know for sure. She then told Him that she hopes that soon she will be baptized. We were in shock. Obviously it was the best day of our lives!!
Sorry this is a novel but I just had to share these experiences with you! I could not be happier! And don’t worry, sister carver and I are staying together for this transfer. Other news: we get a new mission president next week–I’m SO sad to see the Sorensons go–I can’t express how much I love and adore and appreciate and respect and honor them. They have changed my life forever, but I’m excited to meet the Borders and learn to love them as well. I hope you all have a sublime week! And a Happpy happpppy birthday to my argentinian godess of a sister. Nicole Brook you are my other half and I love you so much. I wouldn’t be who i am today if you weren’t born 20 years ago into our family. I think about you and pray for you always and i hope you cherish this birthday and celebrate with service.
happy father’s day dad!!! i’m the worst daughter in the world because actually i had NO idea it was father’s day until i glanced at nicole’s email….yikes. russia doesn’t have father’s day–instead they have “men’s day” when all the men celebrate their masculinity and that was in february. but i can’t even begin to tell you how grateful i am for you–you’re a gem and the best father anyone could ever ask for. thank you for your prayers and your devotion to God and to mom and to us.
this week has been incredible!!! TWO HUUUUUUUUUGE miracles came out of nowhere by the means of paulina and karina. Paulina is a 17 year old girl who is super mature for her age and me and sister carver call her “ponderful” because she is pensive and really ponders/thinks things through and it’s wonderful and she’s wonderful. so ponderful. there’s SO much i want to tell you all about her and how we found her and how our lesson went but let me just give you a sneak peak: there was much joyful jigging as soon as she walked out of the room on mine and sister carver’s part. I didn’t think things could get better, but then we met karina. She’s a 40ish woman (who is flawlessly beautiful and looks 30 at the oldest) and she’s a karate trainer and kicks butt and is so strong–physically and spiritually. she’s SO wise and so prepared and ready to make these changes. i can’t wait to tell you all about her.
we went to tver this week and had a wonderful exchange with the sisters there and it’s SO beautiful there and we walked along the volga river and ate icecream before we got on our train back. tonight we leave again, like i said, and we will be gone pretty much the whole week….i’ll explain next week. but pray for us because there will be two night trains, a bus ride, and an airplane this week!!! (we have a visa trip the day we get back from our double splits in lipitsk and voronesh).
Crazy wonderful times. i’ve never been happier or more tired.
i love you!!!